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Literature
The Storm
The Storm
They say maybe its freeing
that the storm swoops in
without giving any real meaning
but with no regard for need
at the end of the day does the storm disapate
or simply gather speed?
Nothing at all is for sure
so do you wait it out
or give in to this force of nature?
Perhaps you should have known
you think life is perfect
but that's just the calm before the storm
They say maybe it's freeing
that the storm swoops in
without giving any real meaning
but even with no regard for need
i still hope the storm disapates
before it gathers destructive speeds.
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Literature
Survive In A State Of Fear
I feel damaged
down to my core.
Everyday I feel like
I'm heading off to war.
I try to appear strong
even when I hear it's a sin.
I'm not sure if I believe that,
but i wonder will anyone want me again?
He's changed who I am inside.
My old life is like a myth.
I know this is true because
apparently now I'm too hard to live with.
I cry every now and again.
Reality isn't real it seems.
Will my nightmares ever
turn back into my dreams?
Dreaming is all I've ever really known.
Is anything really real?
Just because tears fall
doesn't mean I really feel.
I feel so detached and numb.
I'm in shock; the pain took over.
It seems like a distant memory
when my days were filled with love and laughter.
Will I ever be happy again?
Or will these feelings always be here?
I guess I better start learning
how to survive in a state of fear.
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bella-memoria
A Beautiful Memory
United States
Current Residence: austin, texas
Favourite genre of music: all kinds
Favourite photographer: Robert Frank
Favourite cartoon character: care bears, rainbow brite, my little pony, the true things that tell you that you were an 80's
Personal Quote: sometimes you have to take the leap and build your wings on the way down
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First Sign of Summer

Well summer has officially begun. You can argue that summer started as soon as the kids got out of school or you can argue that technically it doesn’t begin until June 21 (Summer equinox) but regardless of the details, it’s definitely hot enough to be summer in my book! Along with the heat comes the more relaxed attitude that is characteristic of the season. Does anyone else have a problem accepting this?

Don’t get me wrong, I WANT to accept this idea. Every year I count the days down until summer where I fantasize that my days will be filled with exciting travel plans balanced with lazy days in a hammock reading a breezy novel and sipping ice tea. Family and friends will come over for dinner more frequently (since we’re all in vacation mode right?) and my nights will be spent with good friends, good food, good conversation, and a damn fine wine. Sadly, this never seems to happen. I feel awkward having so much “free” time. I feel like I’m not being productive. I feel that my time can and should be spent in much better ways. And instead of being recharged at the end of the season and ready to begin the fall with a newfound energy, MY summer ends with less energy than I began it with! And I suspect I’m not alone in this.

People are busy. I get it. You can’t possibly take time out of your day to relax, take a nap, read a book, watch your puppy chase a butterfly, etc. There’s work, housework, appointments, even vacation has become stressful nowadays with all the planning that must be done before hand and all the financial repairs done afterwards! I feel the same way. Yet I also feel increasingly like this is something I MUST make a priority in my life. If for no other reason, for my sanity. I have to have time to recharge my soul. My boyfriend knows firsthand the repercussions that come about when I don’t take time for myself. I’m in a “blah” mood. However, that blah mood can quickly become an upset. I walk around exhausted, complaining about things, etc. My normally optimistic attitude will rapidly become me seeing the glass as damn empty! This is definitely not the “me” that I know (and certainly not the one my boyfriend fell in love with) and yet I just can’t seem to find the time to do what I know is necessary to my well-being.

So what are we to do? I have started with baby steps. I am compiling a list of what I would do if I had absolutely NOTHING to do for a day. I also have another list of how I would spend my time if I had a week left to live (with no boundaries including financial, etc). Now hear me out before you write me off as being morbid. This list really helps me realize where my priorities lie and THEN I can also see where I’m not living in accordance with my priorities. For example, one of the things on my list is that I would see the world during my final days. However, when’s the last time I traveled and actually saw the city/country I traveled to? Not only taking pictures, but really experienced that place? That’s a perfect example of not living in accordance with my priorities. Now of course it’s not feasible to travel every day of my life. But I can start with baby steps. I can plan a trip for next summer. I can figure out what country I would like to visit the most and do some research into that country. It can even be as small as eating at a restaurant serving the cuisine of the country of my choice. The point is not WHAT you do but that you are DOING something!

SO, suggestions for comments on this blog:
• any thoughts or comments you have about summertime and it’s lackadaisical attitude
• ideas of small, feasible ways that one could start to reclaim their time to nourish their soul
• for those of you that have this practice mastered, how do you do it?!

And with that, I challenge each and every one of you to take just 15 minutes for yourself today to do whatever you feel like doing. AND not feel bad about it!

Thanks for reading,
Lindsay
  • Listening to: 8mm
  • Reading: your first triathlon
  • Drinking: water

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silhouet Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2004   Photographer
Thank you for you :+fav:


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cleavage Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2003
thanks for the fav!!
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fizzbomb Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2003
wow thank you so much for the comment and the fav on 'Nature at its best' you have made my day as now I have got the top of the design section FAV's which I have been trying for ages, man! I'm like a kid in a sweet shop hahaha!!!.

take it easy
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crazy-ray Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2003
Thanks, it was touching Hug
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human-azazello Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2003   Writer
hello! thank you for all your comments and the fav and the watch and everything, it was so cool.

if you need any help with photography just ask, I'll do my best to help (but i pretty much don't know squat about it really...)
also i see you write poems I do some poems at ~control04

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silhouet Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2003   Photographer
Hi there Lindsay,

Welcome on my devwatch .. hope you like it out there ;-) (Wink)
Your picture entitled "Behind The Wall" looks promising....
hope to see you grow with all devart has to offer all of us :-) (Smile)
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caitiecometrue Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2003
it was really sweet of you to +fav a little song and dance.
I really appreciate it.
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pinheadbrigade Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2003
Thanks for the +fav on [link]

It means a whole lot to me. =D (Big Grin) Keep up the good work, and get some more pictures up, I like them!
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lonelydreamer Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2003
Second comment: WELCOME TO DA :D (Big Grin)

As ~scor has said, I like you stuff as well, and you definately have talent, both in poetry and in photography.

I'm making a guess that you're more into it as a hobby. Your photos are great, but I think there's a lot you can "improve" on.

I'm just learning too, so I don't really have a right to say that, but I just thought I'd mention it. Floating

again, hope you have a great time here, and hope to see more of your work in the future!
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scor Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2003   Photographer
first comment :) (Smile) . I really like your stuff, you are very talented and I hope to see more from you soon. Maybe we can do something together this summer ;) (Wink) . Keep up the good work.
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